Who were you before the addiction?

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  1. All For One

    All For One Fapstronaut

    High achiever
    Slightly nerdy
    Super hyped up about everything all the time
    Always happy

    None of that really changed after I got addicted, except my marks fell a little, girls noticed me more (ironic lol but it has less to do with MO and more to do with my age I suppose; i just mean to say that my MO addiction never gave me social anxiety) and I generally stopped giving a fuck about other people in general (aka depersonalization) and became what you might call a "cunt".
     
  2. Der Drachenkönig

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    Shy but good natured and kind
    Insecure
    Model Student
    Overachiever maybe
    Very naive and innocent
    Very eager

    When the addiction kicked in my marks dropped significantly, made the wrong friendships and made some bad decisions as well as having poor coping mechanisms. Resentment was there, but it had weakened and was still for the most part idealistic and kind, naive if anything. It came in full force and took over once i became an addict.
     
  3. InappropriateUsername

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    Great question.
     
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  4. Enulv

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    Undevelopped piece of meat, I guess. Feels bad that my puberty years, teenage years were spent watching porn :D Whatever.
     
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    Edit: misread title as "who were you before nofap" oh well
     
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  6. intso

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    someone who never had a phone with internet, already introvert, addicted to tv
     
  7. AxBlaim

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    Optimistic
    Sociable

    Other than that, I can’t remember
     
  8. Infinity10

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    I was :
    The guy who does all work without fail, without cheating.
    The guy who has gained enough trust and respect of elders and teachers, his lied will be believed as truth. (I never ever used this to my advantage, and I never did any severe mistake.)
    A guy who does almost everything in a group / family, but never took credit.
    A guy who never got angry, but when I did, even the big bullies were running.
    A guy who was extremely shy with the opposite gender.
    I was basically a powerhouse.

    And after I succeed at NoFap, I will be so much more.
    Peace.
     
  9. skylark

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    I have never known who I am because I grew up in a home where emotions were not allowed, where being black/Asian/gay etc was viewed with considerable disdain. At 13, I began masturbating and I never did that healthily then in 2003 I discovered high speed internet and porn then became the driver for my already problematic masturbation issues. I'm now 46 and haven't a clue who I was before. All that lost time :emoji_frowning2:
     
  10. thinking_differently

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    No problem.
    It happened.
    You can breathe. You are living.
    Go discover!
     
  11. Queek The HeadTakker

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    A child who liked to play football and do stupid stuff....and i still like both
    My addiction isnt very bad fortunaly
     
  12. determinedtoquit

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    AHAHAHA

    I was a child before and after my addiction to pornography started... Like most kidz I was imaginative, present (yet in my own world), full of joy, hopeful for the future. Today, I am still all of these things. But I am so much more.
    I'm older and I am wiser... I have understanding. I'm sympathetic... I don't make snap judgments about strangers because I know that many (if not most) men struggle with this (but dont fight it) in some way, shape or form and it changes everything about the way they operate.
    Thank u for this question because it made me realize I'm grateful for this struggle. Sometimes I hate it, but the wisdom I have now and the peace that comes from walking in that wisdom... I don't know if I would have that if I didnt recognize the reality of the situation & fight as hard as I did.
     
  13. Mo1989

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    Was an innocent, shy and a very religious brought up guy. I had hobbies but unfortunately i didn't do any sports or involve in social activities due to strict parents. In that society girls and boys were not allowed to mix up i always thought girls were godly creatures till porn kicked in and made things worst. Last 15 years are just wasted can't remember anything happy happening to me. I guess that PMO addiction to blame and circumstances that lead to these conditions. I wish to recover and be the person who lead by example
     
  14. Mo1989

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    Was an innocent, shy and a very religious brought up guy. I had hobbies but unfortunately i didn't do any sports or involve in social activities due to strict parents. In that society girls and boys were not allowed to mix up i always thought girls were godly creatures till porn kicked in and made things worst. Last 15 years are just wasted can't remember anything happy happening to me. I guess that PMO addiction to blame and circumstances that lead to these conditions. I wish to recover and be the person who lead by example
     
  15. I think all of us are still those same people deep down. We need to forgive ourselves for what we have done and let go of the past. You are not your addiction, problems or jobs. You are valuable, loved, and there is something inside you that no one else has that only you can bring into this world. We all struggle. Life is hard sometimes. Learn to Express emotions in a genuine way and connect with people. There is hope beyond our struggle.
     
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  16. ShadyPerson

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    There was no before the addiction for me I think. I learned to fap when I was four years old.
     
  17. Belching_Booch

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    An insecure nerdy fat kid that liked anime and video games. These days I'm a slightly less insecure muscular dude who still likes anime and video games. Not as much as I used to though.
     
  18. SickSicko

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    Someone who though could do anything in life, that nothing could stop me, that I was the best at anything until proven otherwise, with some charisma that I couldn't even comprehend because I did not see myself as great as people used to tell me I was, like, people used to choose me to lead, and I was like "why me?" I was my worst enemy, and I almost destroyed myself, life had to teach me many lessons and humble me, and I lost myself in self-indulgence trying to cope with the pain.
     
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