Who's up for a JULY challenge?

I'm in have 65 days so far but still another month is a win

 

"It's better to stay away from it". that's what im going to do next time I get any urges.

 

Edging for someone who's not masturbating is like an alcoholic taking a shot of liquor when they're supposed to be trying to kill the habit. Once you've had a taste of what you're not supposed to be having, you want it more. Plus it has side effects.

My longest streak was 9.5 days and I screwed it up by edging. I spent a couple of hours doing it the night before I relapsed, and the next day I had the worst blue balls I'd ever had in my entire life. Every single time I moved or had to touch myself for any reason there was this low, dull aching throb and eventually I relapsed in order to relieve the pressure. When you edge, your body prepares for orgasm by getting your semen ready to be ejaculated. When you stop, it's just sitting there. It can't go back to where it was before since your body doesn't work like that, so it sits until it breaks down and is passed in your urine.

Add that to the fact that the longer you've gone without masturbation the better edging feels and you've got a perfect recipe for relapse. So that's why most people tend to avoid it.

 

Edging for me always was the biggest part of the problem. It keeps me in that unnatural always horny state so I would always be lost in fantasy and fall into porn.

I don't know I just want out of the whole damn loop. Bought the ticket, took the ride for a very long time and now I just want off.

I hope you all are doing good. I had a rough miserable day all around yesterday but didn't relapse. I feel a bit better today but I need to go for a long walk. Excess energy kills me.

This is a battle but one worth fighting.

I see us all running through a storm and hail of bullets together trying to escape.
I see guys go down, I see guys get up. Some get nailed right out of the gate and others seem closer to escape but we can all get hit at any time. So much of it is random. We just have to keep getting up and running, take the bruises as a badge of honour instead of shame. Keep reaching back and pulling the fallen up.
We are all ahead of our times.

To the teen who relapsed, keep going you are way ahead of the curve here. Beat this thing and you will have something 99% of your generation doesn't. You will be the fucking Buddha compared to the addicted masses which I assume will be most.

seriously is anyone not addicted to porn these days of some sort?

It's all so mainstream.

In the 80's Videodrome was the creepiest fucking thing I had ever seen. And here we are but worse and with children caught in it.

it's a matrix of slime

If you are in a relapse now or fucking around with anything border line just stop. no blame, just stop and run

you got caught in the porn flood lights for a second
it happens, shake it off and keep running

AllantheCowboy really really helped my mind with his percentages point of view.
thank you that couldn't have come at a better time

I really need to get the hell off the net and walk until I hit the point of natural relaxation. Sketchy energy.

good luck to all you guys, let's do this

 

The first step is to admit that you have a problem, and the next step is to start fixing that problem. It's not an easy or fun road, but in the long road it makes you a stronger person for it and builds you up as a person.

You're a strong guy, and I know you can do this. I can't speak for everyone else, but I'll always be here to support you man. As you said, we can and will do this. It's just a matter of time and being patient.

 

I'm going for 90 days and I'm on 16 so far, I will go through July with you all! Remember if your thinking about madturbating. Don't. I always make an excuse up for myself but don't. There's no excuse.

 

This will be my first attempt to quit after years of addiction. Now is the time to quit, and now is July!

 

Your post made me think of the Logical Song by Supertramp so I youtubed it.

shattered my soul, I can't stop crying ...I lost it at the 20 sec mark and a complete mess by one min

That's what I want too. To able to see things through innocent eyes again.

Stop the madness.

some of the symptoms of PMO eluded me because I thought it was just ageing
the numbness ect, I thought that's just how life goes I guess

It shocks me how bad it got before I noticed it. I mean by the time I noticed I was already consumed. My awakening was an accident.

I got on a kick of watching Spielberg movies like Close Encounters and ET, that lead to Star Wars and all these movies I hadn't seen since I was a kid. I got so into it I forgot about porn for awhile. I cried watching Mary Poppins

After about 2 weeks of that I obviously felt very different but it took me awhile to make the connection.
Then next of course the horror of finding out I couldn't go 2 days without P when I tried and all that comes with that.

I don't know if it would help anyone else but I find pushing my mind progressively into PG and G rated material really helps. I like not having to make these stupid entertainment choices too. So if I am watching a screen it has Superman TAS looping, the Chris Reeves movies ect. I'm big on the super hero's right now for the morals, wholesomeness.

I want the super hero morals of Clark Kent.

 

I would like to join you in your challenge for July. I ve recently joined the forum and have just now come very close to relapsing but reading your message has given me a new sense of purpose and motivation. Let's try to do this together!

 

Good points about watching PG and G materials and the super heroes. It seems to help me too. I'll also watch anything with a theme of pride, effort, dedication, sports, achievement. Last night I got really anxious, but happened to find Spartan Race on TV. Seeing people work so hard to train and then push themselves through the mud and obstacles was very inspiring. I think we all need some kind of heroes to look up to, especially when we are down. Some of the top sports hero movies I like are:
1. Rocky I (the original)
2. Miracle (great underdog true story about hockey, even if you're not a hockey fan)
3. Hoop Dreams (PG-13, true story of kids with dreams of playing NBA basketball overcoming odds)

 

Hoosiers, the Replacements, Rudy

 

I have failed. I'm so sorry. My trigger was alcohol and stress.

 

Weekends are hard...long weekends even more so ... but I'm glad to report that I've gotten past it. I've tracked myself in the past to know that if I have alcohol -- then the rest follows and is harder to control.

I'm speculating here -but having practically had no alcohol for the last 6 weeks (Except once on a long flight) may have helped with keeping me out of PMO trouble for this long (its the longest since I can recall --but not long enough).

Now onto the next week!!

 

Assuming one fap per day on average, before NoFap, your success rate for July so far is currently 80%. You're not done, you're just not perfect.

 

"You guys are all amazing. Please keep that in mind. And even if you relapse or edge or simply keep the strike, you have my admiration for constantly trying. No more. No fucking more."

exactly how I feel man

 

Day 6 going strong. cant wait for 31st July

 

Day one down with no urges. Just woke up from a really weird erotic dream that I'll be deconstructing in my journal, but once I googled it and figured out what it meant I was no longer aroused by it anymore. This isn't going to be an easy journey and that scares the hell out of me, but I need to do it. The weird dream I had and it's meaning just verifies this for me.

89 days to go for my 90 day streak. Then after that, hopefully for good or at least severely cutting it down to where it won't be detrimental to me.