Why can't I control myself

It’s very strange experience to feel out of control of yourself. I know myself! There will be dark days, quite possible relapses but if you could get ur wife to realise you think it’s a problem and ask her for help that could make the process easier for you.

 

If I were you I will give up electronics devices for 90 days.... Sorry I truly don't understand the lack of self control..... I can shake off even dreams that are pornlike. So sorry someone who were in your shoes and solved it would be the best one to advise you

Me best wishes for you

 

I understand where you are coming from. I've had that "cant control myself, powerless feeling". I can also say that I don't feel that way now... I'm at 70 some odd days PMO free and it seems easier, clearer now. I'd done several streaks over the years and always fell back into it. It is still an addiction & I know I cant let my guard down, but I don't feel helpless anymore. I hope you will feel back in control soon, but rest assured you are not alone. People on here can relate.

 

Here is the science of your brain right now my friend. It might help to know what you are trying to combat. The longer you go the easier it will get after a point. Good luck!

 

@Chudmeister what you are dealing with is what seem people call the void. And trying to fill that void is very difficult. It is weird to describe to someone but I think all of us here have felt it. When you are doing fine and you feel an overwhelming sense to do something but everything you can think of sounds boring and uninteresting, except one thing that keeps popping up in your mind. Before you were here you always filled that need to do something with porn. Your brain is also trying to get it's dopamine fix. I would suggest reading Gary Wilson's book on Your Brain on Porn, it would describe everything going on in your brain and why you have that out of control feeling.

 

Agreed ^^ got that book on audible. It helps