Why do I keep going back?

[sirphapzalot]

What you're describing is basically parasocial behaviour but with a sex/porn addict twist. Look at the amount of people who obsess over YouTubers, especially ASMRtists and Vtubers. Or become obsessed with the comings and goings of celebrities. Or obsessed with politicians to the point it overtakes their whole thought process. There are a lot of lonely, frankly maladjusted people out there who are seeking a connection with someone, anyone, and they are willing to sacrifice their morals or even sense of self to get it. When you add sex to the equation, obviously it makes it even worse.

My advice is to cut this out entirely cold turkey. Do whatever you have to to do it. Personally I use a blocked application actually called Cold Turkey, and with it I can lock access to any site behind a randomly generated password that's 1000 characters long. The paid version lets you block application files too, although in your case you might not need that. It's not a perfect solution, there's no such thing as a blocker without loopholes, but you could use it to build up some willpower to resist the urges. The equivalent of locking the booze in a safe and burying the key in the garden instead of leaving it out. Sure, you can just dig the key up and unlock the safe, but it makes it harder.

I think what you mean to say is people are desperate, finding love or finding people that really matter to us is actually incredibly rare, the instance of finding someone you absolutley adore who adores you back is rare and it be turned into a commodity , a fetish even capitalism has targeted your inner most desires and left you with nothing but a gaping hole in your chest, look around there is definitley alot of desperate thirsty people, i can only imagine how women feel whe. There always looking for mr right and guys keep hitting on her who she has no interest in it must be kind of depressing, so people seem to obcess over things they cant have and people monetise that

 

[sirphapzalot]

I can only speak for myself, but after a certain point it stops being about sexual pleasure, just routine. You get used to doing it, so your brain expects it, then demands it. It's also addiction to novelty. These past few weeks I've been obsessed with AI chat sites, and even though I know they are kinda crap, don't really work, and after a point you can see the AI start to loop, I still feel compelled to see what else is new. Which is nothing. And I know it's nothing. But I still feel the urge. The same is true for regular porn of course.

I think breaking that routine is the most important thing to start with, because it weakens that association. Even someone heavily addicted like myself has been able to go pretty far by simply putting up as many barriers between myself and relapse. If I have to take 10 steps to act out instead of one, then I might snap out of it before I actually do anything.

For me its different i like a trans girl who doesnt exist in the real world for me that one model is like a lifeline to what im actually attracted to the fact you guys just do it out of routine tells me you need to set a new routine . For me its like fuck shes literally it so if it was just about routine for me id have already changed the programming ,

You have WAY more options to meeting people yall dont know how lucky you actually are you have options to meeting women instead of cam sites

 

[EscapingPMO]

a lot of people on this planet make big mistakes and then need to find a way to recover and fix the damage. You are not alone in this... but yes... I'd recommend just ditching the cam sites completely... you said it yourself.. if you don't have the money.. they act completely differently. These women don't care about the men on the sites... they don't let you actually have sex with her.. they just flash some skin and make money.. its really ridiculous....

you will be okay though... just quit the cam sites .... even if you feel like crap, just do it out of defiance. Even if you feel sad, do it out of defiance. never again let these fake people con you out of even one more dollar ever again