Possible trigger words* * * * * * * * * Hi guys first off i would like to apologize for my awful grammar. Secondly i have some questions... Well anyway i have sustained myself from PMO for excatly 100 days now. I would love to put up a success story but i just dont think im completely there yet. I watched a bunch of sissy hypnosis stuff back in the day but after nofap i have completely shut it out. I know have a girlfriend that i love and i lost my virginity to. Everything was going great until we decided to get high with one another. Whenever im high with her or with anybody for that matter i have these thoughts that question my sexuality. Its gotten to the point where i cant have sex when im high.I really enjoy having sex with her but even when im not high, if she ask me "are you enjoying it" i lose my erection. I just dont want these thoughts anymore and i dont know how to get rid of them. Ive even started pushing away my friends because they only make it worse by calling me names and stuff. I know they don't mean anything by it but it still hurts. I don't know if its because im insecure about myself or if i just haven't gotten over my addiction. I just feel like im all by myself here and i want these thoughts to stop. If anyone is going through this or knows how to help i would really appreciate it. Honestly I feel like im going crazy because I know im not attracted to the same sex but these thoughts that come into my head make me think about it. I just want to not have these thoughts anymore and enjoy my life. I have too many other problems to worry about than this.