My brothers, I have been on the NoFap boat for approximately 2,5 years. I have been through a lot. Suffered a lot. Won a lot, and then lost it all again. I have learnt much about NoFap and all that makes our addictions. I recently finally figured out why I relapsed all those hundreds of times. This might very well be the same case for you, especially if you are also suffering from PIED like me and many others. So read along and reflect. For months I was afraid that maybe PMO was not causing my ED, but something organic or whatever. This fear caused me to relapse. Relapsing gave a sense of feeling of still being able to express myself sexually, since I was afraid to death that there was something wrong with my tool that I might never be able to express myself sexually again if I were to do NoFap for life. This fear, coupled with the fact that our brains would rather stick with the devil it knows, than to improve but having to change in order to do that, makes it so that relapsing often times when you are triggered may seem like your best option. I fell for this deceiving option so many times... But this option that I choose, the option of fear, is one that is destroying me and making me lose myself. I know finally see this. Relapsing was never really because of cravings or urges, because I had multiple good streaks where I resisted them, but the relapses were always because of fear. Fear made me want to go back to a place of comfort and a place where all was good and familiar. That place was porn. Porn has been infecting my emotional system for far too long now. so how do we fix relapsing by fear? I do not know for sure. But I now know what is triggering my feeling of relapsing and that knowledge gives me power. I once experimented with the idea that you tell yourself every single time something goes wrong that all will be OK. When you catch yourself wondering, struggling, doubting and whatever about the NoFap healing process, tell yourself that you will be OK. Whatever our demons throw at us, we will be OK. NoFap is by far the hardest thing I have ever tried. And that comes from a guy who is in the military. NoFap separates us from the rest. The ones who complete NoFap have achieved true greatness. Pursue that greatness my brothers.