Why I am here and where I want to be a.s.a.p.with all your help

My dear Fapstronauts, I am new and I am very happy to be new in your community because I feel like new-born with a large smile on my face, ready to attack and get rid of this addiction from which I couldn't get rid since real 51 years of my life, this means that since 13 years old the emptiness of my life lead me to this situation together with many other factors in my lonely life, a father who wanted to abort my life before my birth as he later did for my 4 other siblings on a line, but couldn't accomplish his wish and started a campagne of pressure to separate me from my mother, my only friend on this world, until 2014 where she got a stroke and lost her speech, he goes on attacking me each time I visite them in their elderly home, I have also got many heart problems because of the on going addiction, my only possible point of distraction until today. Now the decision is taken, I am going to do everything to get rid of my habitude of killing my distress this way and I'll use my intelligence and all my technical knowledge, being a building ingenieur, speaking 5 languages, an inventor, a writer, a painter, a real believer in God the Almighty and born as a positive thinking soft hearted loving person contrary to my father. Please help me and show me your example in such a way that I may arrive "there" a.s.a.p. and be free again and be happy as everyone who did never need such a torture in his life. Many thanks, God may bless your whole community.

 

Many thanks my dear friends cherishing a similar struggle. My first aim is of course never look at porn again during these 90 days which, I am sure will diminish my appetite 99% for this insane attitude. As a second one I start this very evening with a Hebrew lesson on-line which also asks a lot of involvement because of the steep learning curve. Thirdly I must learn to master CAD drawing methods which will demand from me also a lot of learning hours per day and last but not least I am going to a tryout lesson for violin today (I played it on a very early age) and I want to learn also to play guitar and synthesiser a.s.a.p..... and when I can one day put my paintings for sale on te web it will give me a new boost to paint again.... so as you see I am building up an arsenal of beautiful "time spenders" to forget about what is between my legs and rethink about him as an ordinary means for getting rid of excess water in my body.... I hoop that you all will have again an excellent day today. Cheers!... P.S. as a reply to the second brother in our battalion, yes I agree with you, the situation in our churches as today is nothing compared to when they were founder ±2000 years ago, through the ages and the technical evolution which demolished a lot of people from inside everywhere (also through on-line porn) there is little left over which could help people like us to stend firm then some advices and a sign to search it in the direction of our God which remains very abstract and gets abstracter each day that we become a technological, robotic, money and selfsufficency oriented mass of idiots. The church of then is not the church of today and therefore groups like NoFap are very necessary for the wellbeing of the whole humanity. God bless.

 

Dear D . J . Each day and each night I get stronger. Yesterday night first time in a long series of sleepness ones I avoided from my mind all porn idea and it worked very well!!! I became a follower of your way of thinking which, in it's totallity is logical and I tried with some success to memorise it for life. Many thanks my brother You are Great...