Why I'm doing this....

[ANewBeginning17]

Here's a thought:

In real life, sex may feel good (I've never done it, but I can still imagine). However, it is also very risky. Not only do you risk impregnating a woman (if you're not looking to get kids), but you also risk obtaining an STD. If you get an STD this way, that can seriously impact you for the rest of your life in a negative way especially if it's HIV.

The reason why I'm trying to abstain from PMO'ing is not only to avoid the stress of PIED, it's also a more personal thing. One is a moral thing due to my religious background and another reason why I'm trying to quit is because one day, I would love to get married one day and have my own family.

I can have all the success in the world, but being alone in this, it just wouldn't feel that fulfilling to me.

It shames me to say this, but after 43 days of abstaining from PMO'ing, I had a relapse. I woke up with a wet dream and I couldn't stop myself from going online and masturbate over hentai pictures this morning. Judge me however you want, I can take it. But now, I'll have to start over again.

If there's anything that I can look forward to from now on is that this is a new year, 2018. This is the first time I've given into this temptation this year. Last year, I don't even know how many times I caved. This year, I can go after reducing it to the point where I can still remember how many times I PMO'd. The best case scenario is this is the only hiccup.

Instead if dwelling on how I could give into this, I'm going think of what I can do to make sure this doesn't happen again. Wet dreams are normally out of your control, however, this happened in the morning when I was more aware of myself. I got to avoid the fantasizing because it caused the wet dream to happen.

If I do get another wet dream, then discipline myself not to use this to go online as an excuse. And most of all, I have to keep reminding myself that the people that I look at online are not real people, they're fictional. And even if they were real, I highly doubt they would be doing all the things that are up on those websites.

 

[Kipling]

Here's a thought:


It shames me to say this, but after 43 days of abstaining from PMO'ing, I had a relapse. I woke up with a wet dream and I couldn't stop myself from going online and masturbate over hentai pictures this morning. Judge me however you want, I can take it. But now, I'll have to start over again.

Absolutly no one here has the right to judge you, since literally all of us have been or are addicts and have had relapses. Don't be to harsh on yourself. Relapsing is normal during a reboot adn 43 days is a really long streak. However, we know it's not enough. To keep pursuing your goals I's recommend you to focus more on what you have achieved so far for motivation and focus on your failures for knowledge. In any case, I'm sure your next streak will last much longer.

Good luck!

 

[Warrior mode]

All the best buddy!
You are going to Win for Good this time!

 

[Prashanna]

You just had the Chaser Effect I guess. If you orgasm once, you tend to chase for more right after it, which is what you did. So if you have another wet dream next, make sure to be aware of this effect and don't cave the next time.

 

[DE.HK]

Don't feel ashamed after having relapses. This might trigger a continuous relapse. Perhaps you should think of something positive, and let go the negative feeling. Relapse is inevitable. There is an old saying, you need to walk through the bottom before you reach the peak! I understand it is easy to say but difficult to execute. Perhaps you should start a little journey writing what you are grateful for and what would make your day great! It was recommended by a psychiatrist, hope that helps! All the best to you brother!