My biggest problem fetish by far is cuckold. As a soon to be 40 YO virgin, sex is surreal to me, nothing but a fantasy, something "real men" do while I can only dream of it. It is so surreal that, to me, any man who is having casual sex may as well be a god. I've had many, many disturbing fetishes over the years but nothing "rewards" my brain like cuckoldry. I can actually feel the veins in my head pulsing as I watch other men have sex, and it's like they're making fun of me, calling me a weakling failure of a man, doomed to be the omega who eats last, if at all. But this goes completely against nature. I'm not gay, so WHY does seeing another man "succeed" at sex while I "fail" feel so damn good??? It makes NO SENSE.