And I'm devastated. She was my one and only, and just four short months ago she was behind me and my road to PEID recovery. Since then my use of P has dramatically reduced, although I'd occasionally relapse, I'd go for two week stretches without PMO. I'd just found a couple of accountability partners and had begun a quest for 30 days hard mode. Admittedly my porn addiction has had a negative effect on our love life for a long time, but I was finally on a road to recovery. Then tonight, she tells me she's slept with someone more than once. Shes couldn't say whether she'd want to reconcile if I got control of my addiction. I don't know where to go from here. It all seems pointless now.