It's time to say it. High time. This is an addiction. I am 50 years old and have no wife and children. I did have the pleasure of a 4 and a half year relationship with a lovely woman and her son. That's the closest I had. Of course, this was undone due to my addiction. Although other factors were there as well, this was an elephant in the room that obviously hurt her. She was resentful beyond what some women may be. Understandable. I managed to go about 7 weeks hard mode when we talked about getting married. We have been broken up for 4 years now, almost the length of our relationship. Have I learned anything? I don't think so. I am still PMOing. Maybe once a week now, but STILL doing it. Spending a good number of hours looking at...well you get the idea. I have never came really clean and admitted I am an addict. I have done my damndest to wall myself off from real relationships/real intimacy. I suspect I was doing this before high speed internet. I know what to do. But I had to get this out and just get very sober and clear-eyed with myself. So...we start the clock over for the hundreth or so time. If I keep going like this I am guaranteed to be alone in a one bedroom apartment with no growth or enrichment. Time to change for good.