Ok, so my wife finally caught me. So my wife and I (married 16 years) have had a pretty awful relationship for most of it. Lot's of background I am not going into yet. Both Christian, have two kids. Neither wants a divorce. Needless to say we have had very little intimacy over the last 5 to 10 years, as in very little. Maybe once every 4 to 6 months. So what I don't get is: if my wife hates me that much and refuses to ever be with me, why does she care what I look at? I have only done this to fill a void. She has no interest in physical intimacy. Why does it bother her? I honestly don't get it. I do know it's wrong and I know I need to stop. I am the loneliest married guy I know.