Will i ever quit?

anony mous

anony mous

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I just relapsed. I was writing a paper for university and it got late at night and it got boring. I needed the dopamine rush. My brain was just like " youre bored youve been bored for so long now just take a look at psubs" and we all know what happened. Its funny because i read so much about the process and so many sucess stories that im desensetized to them. Its like i just cant quit. I logged in to reset my counter thinking its been forever since i watched porn and i saw my counter at 3 days... Only this saturday i was all like i see the benefits of porn and how i will stop it and here i am. Thing is i do see the benefits, like only today i was talking to this really cute girl and i was enjoying the conversation and im having more meaningful relations. But then i get home, i get bored, and EVERYTHING is so boring but drugs and porn. I know its the dopamine but damn its a strong chemical. So strong that before relapsing i simply told myself " well just relpase now youve got finals ahead of you you have limited motivation store, relapsing will allow you to have motivation to finish your projects and study for your finals. after finals you can start again"

I dont think ill quit porn, i just think ill view it less and gradually more. Its so sad i dont know what to do. I ALWAYS waste so much time on stupid shit. It was 11 when i got off my desk now its 12:05 and im not done the reports my pants are filled with cum and i relapsed...
 
I don't know what to say... Studying can really get the best of you. Your mentality is clearly addiction-related though... "One more time, then I will stop"... That's what people say when they want to stop drinking, want to give up smoking or want to eat one last cookie before a diet. Eventually they need to work harder in order to succeed. It's what the brain wants. It's the easiest way out. Truth is that suffering, not giving in, will eventually set you free. Best of luck.
 
Forgive yourself for being human. This isn't a destination, it's a journey. and in answer to your question, yes... hell yes - you will quit. Just being here and venting a bit is going in the right direction. If I may, please give yourself a talking too, put it all aside and get started on a new streak. You can do this.
 
@Amony mous, I don't know if you consider yourself "religious" or not, but a piece of advice that I've found helpful is from the Bible, when Joseph was seduced by the egyptian guy's wife. He ran out of her arms so fast he left his coat behind. Translation, when urges come, I've got to CHANGE something immediately... Or run out of the house like its on fire. I like to run too, but when that's not possible, change something now.
 
Thank you all for your replies. For me the interaction is truely worth gold. I have religious uproots but im not extreemly religious, unfortunately. However,i do know the story. And i do see the point. I try and change something but its so hard. Its always the " one more minute then ill get up" dialogue
 
Speak out loud. When I realize I'm about to relapse I shout out a few things to keep me in check.

'Don't tell me you're gonna do that, you reach so far and now you're gonna away your happiness? For what? Some chick on a screen. Don't do it. You're better than this'

Along those lines.
 
anony mous said:
I just relapsed. I was writing a paper for university and it got late at night and it got boring. I needed the dopamine rush. My brain was just like " youre bored youve been bored for so long now just take a look at psubs" and we all know what happened. Its funny because i read so much about the process and so many sucess stories that im desensetized to them. Its like i just cant quit. I logged in to reset my counter thinking its been forever since i watched porn and i saw my counter at 3 days... Only this saturday i was all like i see the benefits of porn and how i will stop it and here i am. Thing is i do see the benefits, like only today i was talking to this really cute girl and i was enjoying the conversation and im having more meaningful relations. But then i get home, i get bored, and EVERYTHING is so boring but drugs and porn. I know its the dopamine but damn its a strong chemical. So strong that before relapsing i simply told myself " well just relpase now youve got finals ahead of you you have limited motivation store, relapsing will allow you to have motivation to finish your projects and study for your finals. after finals you can start again"

I dont think ill quit porn, i just think ill view it less and gradually more. Its so sad i dont know what to do. I ALWAYS waste so much time on stupid shit. It was 11 when i got off my desk now its 12:05 and im not done the reports my pants are filled with cum and i relapsed...
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I know it's difficult man. It's really difficult. I have experienced two killer urges in the last two days. It was hard as hell! But you have to control it! I have had really a bad time in fighting those urges. But brother! The second they go you will feel really motivated. Here are a few things that work for me:

1. The key to quit pmo is replacement. You have to replace those dirty habits with healthier ones. Exercises, sports, reading books might help.

2. Boredom is your worst enemy. Keep yourself involved in such situations.

3. Haven't tried yet but read a lot of benefits of cold showers.

4. Don't FORGET. Never forget that you are struggling for a better life. Fighting urges will brighten your life eventually.

Wish you good luck!

Regards
Afnan Abdullah
 
Don't give up on yourself. If others can do it, you can too!! That's how you gotta view this journey.

Love you!
 
I was thinking of watching porn yesterday. then i remembered this quote: 'the opposite of addiction is not abstinence but connection.' so i lay on bed n listened to songs.

at times its okay to get bored. i dont want to be on a roller coaster all the time.
 
I personally think every single person who truly acknowledges and realises they have a PMO addiction will stop at some point in their life. The great thing is every one on Nofap is aware of their problem, can you Imagen how many other people are out there with a PMO problem and don't even realise they have one its such a easy addiction to realise you don't have.

It was years of PMO everyday until i realised i had a problem, the day i woke up was the day i fapped to transwoman P and though aahh man what the fuck was that so i typed in stuff like 'Does transwoman porn make me gay' and 'how much porn do men watch' into a search engine and i eventually stumbled across 'if your watching transwoman P your probable watching to much P' and eventually found Nofap and realised i had a problem i was like man how have i sleepwalked into such a problem without even realising it for years and not even considering how my excessive fapping could be the root caused of many of my problems.

Im just glad i woke up to this so early in my life (21 years old) but then agin 9-10 years of fapping is a long time. The longer you realise and try to stop the more knowledge and experience you gain and the more you find out about your own habits and what works personally for you that is why i think eventually you will quit.
 
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