Damnit I did it again. I relapsed for the lost count time. I know that the reason why I keep relapsing is because I cant say no or even try not to think about the temptations. The past two days temptations have been eating me alive. Yesterday I nearly gave up and well today I did. Now I am left with one question. Will I ever stop relapsing? Is it possible? I mean shit I have been trying for like a year now and I haven't been able to get anywhere. Is there any hope for me at all? Am I stuck with this porn addiction for the rest of my life. I feel dirty and ashamed of what I have done. I have not only let myself down but everyone who knows I am struggling with this down. Like right now I don't even know if God even trusts me anymore because I have told him that I am sorry and that I am going to stop but I don't. I feel like a total failure and I feel like this is getting to be a lost cause and that I am going to be stuck like this for the rest of my life. Anyone else feeling what I am feeling or have felt what I am feeling. Please I really need help. I want to get my life turned around.