Will I truly recover?

Fucfemdom

Fucfemdom

New Fapstronaut
I'm 23 y.o and have had a life rich of porn and sexual encounters. My porn journey evolved into only watching femdom, and then into browsing FetLife to make my fantasies a reality. I've been with regular girls and had regular sex, but only 6/10 times I'd have a full erection. But what I was truly seeking was to fulfill my kinky desires. Turns out, I've had more PIED with girls from FetLife than random girls from the bar or tinder.

I started No Nut November with the notion that it would greatly benefit my life, and then found NOFAP. I've been away from porn for 25 days now, but I met with a girl from FetLife on day 19 and busted less than 60 seconds into intercourse. I felt horrible and misreable after, like I just wasted my streak.

Since I stopped porn, my energy has been through the roof, but my libido very low, no erections when I wake up, and I question if I'll ever be normal again. I still browse FetLife and "fantasize" about kinky relationships, and talk one older women in an ongoing "Goddess / pet " type relationship.

Am I in flatline? Will fantasizing hinder the reboot process? Should I delete FetLife? Did my sexual ecounter affect my progress?
 
Dude im also into femdom like shit, never heard about Fetlife tho, seriously you triggered me a little bit there :/. But you decide, its about your own goal. In some previous posts i mentioned, that you can have fetish- based Sex in my opinion, but without paying for it. That means with somebody, that you might meet there. My own goal is never ever watching P again, and dont fap for at least 100 days. I want to have real Sex and later when i achieved my goals and built up enough confidence, i might try this Fetlife shit.
But another conflict that i have with myself is, i dont want this femdom stuff in my mind. I think its unnatural and it's embarassing for me.
When i was you i would stop Fetlife, if its trigger me to much or if its talking to much energy from me, right now.
Seriously you decide.
 
You are 23. I’m 55 and have 30 plus years of this trash in my brain. I have recovered- you will recover. Dont set ANY long term conditions or agendas regarding retaining this or that behavior. With time and clarity- you will see
 
Your story sounds somewhat similar to mine, I was addicted to femdom related material for years and years, I graduated to actually seeing escorts and prostitutes and paying them to act out femdom fantasies of mine, things so horrifying I wouldn’t even dare to write them here. Even PIED is something I experienced too.

The only path to recovery and full normal penile function again is to just stop watching and even communicating with this woman on fetlife and enough of that “goddess/pet” relationship.

What you are doing is conditioning your self, your penis to only respond to this made up fantasy of being some woman’s pet, it gets to the point that that and only that fantasy will get your dick hard and that isn’t what you want, that is the root of PIED. Even just writing this woman about this is harmful, you don’t even need to look at pictures and videos of femdom, just writing or reading about it will still harm you.

Femdom and all the sick twisted unhealthy fantasies it spurs is just terrible. I myself hate that I even discovered this word “Femdom” and wish I never typed it into google, I’m glad though I’ve overcome it. You don’t need that trash. So yes delete it and stay away.
 
I would like to emphatise one thing: chatting with women on such sites (I don't know the one you mentioned, but I can imagine), looking for femdom stories or fantasies, watching femdom-related pictures or even sex-related pictures - all these things is the same! For you it is only porn substitute and you need to cut it as soon as possible. It can be hard, but you can achieve freedom, mate!
 
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