Yes. It takes time and repeated failures in order to get this habit under control. I'm an older guy (53) who didn't start NoFap until around 2018. I had an entrenched habit spanning decades and it has taken a lot to get to where I'm at currently. Don't give up and do not be discouraged.
I relate to OP. I really want to get to point where I kill venom. I feel like my brain is trying to kill itself, and its awful...
where does this come from, anyway? the lengths that inner monster goes to to trick me into relapse. i hate it.