Hey guys, first and foremost I would like to tell my story so that you can help me as best as possible. I'm 23 and been fapping since elementary school(I was about 12?).Basically I started with this stuff because of curiosity. My classmates were talking about it in the class so I decided to give it a try. If I remember correctly I sometimes "scheduled" when I would masturbate even when I wasn't horny. I was getting older and my addiction was getting worse. I also remember days after I fapped I was still horny but I never fapped two times a day - to put it correctly -> maybe I fapped 2x in 24hrs but I'm sure that I have never masturbated more than one time in just ONE day. When I was around 18 I decided to fight my addiction. I'm a christian so I tried this way - praying to God, going to confess, going to church almost every second day,etc..). At the beginning there were no improvements but then somehow I succeed and I survived around 6 months without masturbation. I still remember benefits of these days without masturbating. Clear head, more time, comfortable around women and so on. Even if I saw some pornography by mistake I didn't get horny and I really didn't have any urges at all. But then, there was school trip to Spain(which lasted about 10 days). I was quite busy there and also cocky because I thought my porn and masturbation addiction was over. During that trip I kind of screwed my spiritual life. Unfortunately, urges were slowly coming back once I got back home. Then one day I relapsed after ~6 months and since then I managed to survive only about 10 days without masturbation. I also would like to mention that most of the time I was only looking at sex gifs, playboy models videos and photos. As far as I'm concerned I did not watch porn videos at all. Not sure if this helps but I have been also using various home-made sex-toys. Here's a little problem - I both want and do not want to stop with my addiction. I kind of like it but on the other hand I'm aware it causes me troubles. Maybe my biggest problem is that I do not have strong motivation to stop with this addiction. Currently I'm on day 3. Thanks in advance for any help and advices. Really appreciate it.