So after 87 days of pm mode I relapsed... I wont give up though the war as just begin I will fight till my last breath, porn sucks.... I have been having sex but today when I relapsed and orgasm to p in my head I felt so bad I feel thousands of nerves reuniting in my head.. Lost appetite so depressed and shaking.... The struggle continues tomorrow no going back
87 days! Impressive. Don't beat yourself up because you relapse. Try to figure out what compelled you to relapse. You can have a longer streak once you know why you relapsed and put in place a strategy for avoiding that trigger. It's not a failure. It's a lesson we need to learn. Over time, we'll learn our triggers and learn how to avoid those triggers. I honestly thought if you get to like 90 days, you are free from this but now after reading your post, I'm just not sure. As I said, don't get hung up on beating yourself up. Learn all you can about this relapse so you'll determine something else you need to avoid. I look forward to more posts from you. Happy Holidays!!!
Initially I defeated the addiction after the struggle began June I got booted September 21st I went on hard mode and relapsed 7times to porn btw June&July August I got to realise porn was the issue so I went PM from August- September relapsed twice to masturbation, I got booted September 21st I got to realize despite my relapses my streak was counting, on 21st September when I got booted I was so happy when I saw my friends I felt omg this is the kind of freedom my friends have been enjoying... As foolish as I'm I thought I free I should just join my friends and have some alcoholic drinks immediately that drink entered my mouth and begin to digest I felt nerves reuniting in my head I begin to get urge like I want to have sex I just knew I was in trouble so I resisted the urge that day that same night I have a wet dream I waited 3days so I decided to have sex, then I started my journey from there till I relapsed to masturbation ystrdy it's 87days and it's been August since I watched porn... Lessons learnt 1. Taking alcohol or any dopamine increasing substance is a relapse as worst as masturbating to porn 2. Sex have no addiction, despite having sex during my streak it didn't interrupted my booting process 3. Masturbation is a reset not a relapsed excessive masturbation is a relapse i.e masturbation slows booting process Despite reset or relapse your initial days u went pmo free still counts don't give up
I relapsed because I was depressed and idol. I will surely get booted I'm going I have defeated the addiction before but relapsed to alcohol because of my stupidity and carelessness I will defeat it again, the last time I watched porn is August.. I relapsed because of alcohol on 25th of September then I started another streak pm mode NW I will go fully hard mode....... But don't misquote me sex didn't interrupted my booting I just feel like going on hard mode
