Withdrawals are is literally the embodiment of “hell on earth”

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by TAR051, Jul 25, 2020.

How long did your withdrawal last?

  1. Few days 2-7

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  2. weeks 2-8

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  3. 3 Months

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  4. 5 Months

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  5. 7 Months

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  6. 1 year

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  1. TAR051

    TAR051 Fapstronaut

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    New to the forum, I’ve been trying to quit porn for 3 years now (time flies) I’m 22 years old and the only thing that has stopped me from rebooting is me, due to the terrible withdrawals. I am currently experiencing anxiety that is so crippling that simply talking to family has become a burden (I still live with family, I’m a student). Going to work is nearly becoming an impossible task do to the amount of anxiety and brain fog that accompany it. I literally feel so much fear and stress in my chest when I’m at work that I have to sometimes hide in the bathroom not to mention the massive pressure in the frontal lobe of my head followed by episodes of confusion and poor short term memory during withdrawal. I’m also dealing with insomnia and serious depression from this.

    When I’m out especially at work I have all this shit hit me at once which puts me in a zombie like state of being tired, you could see it in my eyes, ppl that I’ve went to HS with would run into me on the job and ask “are you ok”? This is very troubling, especially for a person that isn’t natural introverted or shy.

    Not to mention in this state people, especially coworkers oftentimes try so assertive themselves when I’m this state which makes me have to take the little energy I have left to check them. I’ve noticed people are very vampiric in nature. They see you’re not like yourself and began to try to prey on you, my own family does this to me while I’m in this state even after I opened up to them about this, that just turned into them talking behind my back.

    This made me realize how fucked up/fake and sneaky people are in general, when you’re feeling good they act nice and want to be around you do to the energy you’re emitting to feed off of, not necessarily because they fucks with you. kinda like how People want to be around people that’s successful it’s not the person that they like but the idea of success (type of energy)that they are emitting. The only ppl that I noticed don’t try to kick me while I’m down is the people that aren’t really low vibrational people. They’ll just keep their distance but not act fucked up towards me since they see I’m going through something.

    Even though I feel like shit and suicidal thoughts are racing through my head and I’m surrounded by people that makes it worse and try to dominate me in this state. It opened my eyes to the nature of people, I always knew people had they shit with em, but not to this extent. When I’m in the process of trying to get professional help and nine times outta ten I’ll have to resign from my job to give myself a time to relax and properly reboot without having to deal with external bull shit also.
     
  2. UnitedWeStand

    UnitedWeStand Fapstronaut

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    Hello Tar051,
    I have managed to stay clean for many streaks doing 3 years nofap and trying consistently. For me severe withdrawls lasted like 2-3 months. Some withdrawls havent even fully cured but they improve a lot as time passes. My case was severe with PIED and it was difficult. Consider a therapist in this phase of your life!
     
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  3. TAR051

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    I Appreciate the reply, I should’ve joined this forum a long time ago, people that aren’t going through it wouldn’t / don’t care to understand. Once I overcome this I want to start a non profitable organization that exposes the danger of porn while providing free treatment centers nation wide to cure people of this addiction especially men, we have so much working against us right now both known an unknown. I am not a conspiracy theorist put porn is one of the many weapons to keep us subordinate, if you keep the men of a nation weak the women will naturally obey.
     
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  4. Dr.LoveLength

    Dr.LoveLength Fapstronaut

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    Theres an old oriental saying "A healthy mind cant live in a unhealthy body"

    suicidal thoughts never normaly come from one place. There a manifestation of negative thoughts from more than one area of your life.

    You would be amazed the amount of people that complain about anxiety, depression and feeling suicidal but then they go on to tell you they never exercise, eat an unhealthy trash diet and sit indoors all day behind a screen watching tv / playing games.

    Start taking care of your body and lifestyle and just watch your mind adjust.
     
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  5. ahighertruth

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    3 months is when it should go away. trust me, i know EXACTLY how u feel.
     
  6. TAR051

    TAR051 Fapstronaut

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    I see where you coming from, but the reason why I’m currently not working out is due to the withdrawal, I’ve always have and still due hold a muscular Physique. I’m not one of these guys that sat around all his life doing nothing shy an awkward, me stopping pmo and the withdrawals put me in this state. I’ve always played sports currently I’m getting into boxing so I have to be in shape and watch what I eat. What I’m feeling is due to my strong addiction to pornography (11 years) nothing more and nothing less.
     
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  7. That shit hit deeply especially the third paragraph. Even women will try to boss you around. I had developed agoraphobia due this low vibrational state. I had to quit a job and being social due to agoraphobia. I used to play sports, some dudes tried me and as soon as my energy went up their tone and attitude changed around me.
     
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  8. Depend how long, the intensity and the damages have been done by pmo. 3 months is a joke if you were severe. I have completed a lot of 90 days, the symptoms are still persistent. Recently I have completed 16 months straight and I'm still feel fucked up.
     
  9. FutureKing

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    My withdrawls hit about week 2-3 then went to a very tolerable level. I had one when I was driving and I nearly had to pull my car over. Turned out I was both horny and had a full bladder. Was the closest I came to relapse. Around day 30 of hardmode, I got used to the elevated state, and I went on cruise control for another 30 days. The first 3 weeks are a good time.
     
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  10. Pretty sure I've had headaches similar to migranes or it feels like there is a ring around your head putting pressure on it. And yes severe anxiety doesn't make much sense but it is good as I feel like a real man again. The anxiety and stuff sort of come in waves like get some improvement for a few days then they get worse then they improve. Or perhaps its just mood swings I'm not sure all I know is we are all doing the right thing and these symptoms which are only temporary are better than being a masturbater.
     
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  11. FutureKing

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    Heck, I am going through some lowkey physical withdrawls right this second. I'm not going to relapse. I have enough mental clarity to control my urges. I wouldn't be emotionality devestated if I relapsed, but I simply don't want to anymore. I am done. Be done.
     
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  12. celo.rinaldi

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    My symptoms are coming and going without my control. I felt headache like the last comment. Like a ring in your head doing pressure. On the top of the head more precisely.
    I felt severe anger, hate, rage, annoying with anything, heavy body, laziness, horny period, lack of energy to get up early from the bed, very unstable emotional issues.
    Today im feeling more energetic during the night and weakness during the day. Also some lack of attention, focus, concentration, very tired again.
     
  13. With the clarity that ones finds the longer he goes in a state of freedom he also finds strength to go even further.
    You are walking in clarity and your a better man because of it. :)
     
  14. TAR051

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    Real talk, I have female managers that try to get off fucking with me In subtle ways, this is a huge shocker as far the shift in people’s perception of you. Male and female coworkers before the withdrawal is quite submissive and I mean that in a non egotistical way. I’m usually giving much respect. But do to the mental space withdrawal put me in it activates the energetic predator in people. Even the quit coworkers get a lil spunky with me. It’s very interesting to observe non the less. It shows how much we are still animal and the survival of the fittest mentality we have ingrained in our biology.
     
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  15. Ferns

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    Sorry to hear that brother. I feel like my withdrawal is not yet over even though I’ve been on NoFap for 3 years (I’m 19 now) and I haven’t reached the 90 day mark till this day. I know how it feels to have anxiety, that feeling when people finna take you out all the time, feeling of people always looking at you all the time and such, the list goes on. But why do you feel that way though? If you truly believe deep in yourself that you’re the dawg.

    I know that I still have a lot to experience but one thing that won’t change about me is the focus on my purpose, everything else comes later. I know that I’m giving my all to my crafts and I have something to be proud of, while most people won’t even bother improving themselves let alone doing NoFap.

    Just focus on yourself and trust the grind. If you have questions, I’m happy to give my insights about it.

    Live strong.
     

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