Woman Raped

at a Christian conference.

https://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/2018/08/03/rape-arrest-christian-festival-held-private-estate/

Turns out it's not far from where I live. Was actually thinking about going to the church who organized the conference once.

How does something like this happen at a Christian conference?

 

I’ll tell you one way it can happen since I was heading in that direction.

1. I was going to Church a lot. I participated and helped in several areas. I’d be in the chapel at least five days a week setting up, preparing, and doing work in the office.

2. I was watching porn everyday and one of my favorite genre was rape porn.

3. I had developed a bitterness and hatred for many of the attractive women at church because I felt they were rejecting me. (And who can blame them. I had an immature view and attitude towards women that anyone could easily pick up).

4. My porn driven mind started including women at church as part of my rape fantasies.

5. It never happened with me but when we think and fantasize about something long enough we are very apt to eventually act out on those fantasies. I was headed right into that criminal lifestyle.

In fact, one huge reason I decided to go to professional counseling is because I was starting to plan out how I could stalk and rape an attractive woman at the gym. That was my bottom and I realized I needed to get professional help, I was (am) one F’d up hombre.

That’s one reason crap like that happens. There’s other reasons it can happen too.

I’m no longer a church goer. I’m finding that the things my church told me to stay away from have actually been successful in my battle against porn addiction, mainly a professional counselor and secular motivation books and videos. The Bible bashing was no help at all.

 

Ugh, that's awful, no matter where it happened. :/ Christians are far from perfect, unfortunately.

 

I did think porn may have played a role in it. Need to stay away that stuff.