Hello people, I'm currently doing monk mode already at day 200 which is pretty cool -But I'm upset. I just can't handle myself around girls, I've been chatting alot and getting looks - people tell me I'm a good looking guy. But the problem is, after alot of streaks I still get horny alot of times. I was in a smaller city with around 10,000 people (there was no hot girls there so it was much easier). Ever since I moved to a bigger city (280,000 people) the difficulty became much harder, my mind keep tricking me into relapse when I look at girls so I mostly avoid even looking at them, today I looked at a hot girl in the street by mistake and it gave me such a strong urge (she was a bit exposed) I looked once again to try and focus on the woman's face instead of getting arousal (some sort of practice I'm doing looking at woman faces instead of you know..) but I have this horniness I don't know how to get rid off, so must of the time I just avoid looking at girls or even trying to make a conversation because I automatically turn horny.. which results in me being shy as hell How the hell do I deal with it? I've gained enough experience in nofap, and Ive abstained so many times but this doesn't seem to be resolved. I mean I had a dream where I kissed a girl, which turns out it was a wet dream because I jizzed my pants, what's gonna happen when I'll be in a relationship, will I jizz my pants by kissing or holding hands? I'm so sensitive to these.. Would love to hear opinions, another question I hope that when looking at that hot woman it wasn't called edging because it was all about practice of not getting arousal, I'm actually very stressed by that and can't sleep because I don't know whether it's edging or not (I'm hypochondriac when it comes to nofap - especially at 200 days, it wasn't the intention) You're more then welcome to share your opinion.