Words of advice

Hello everyone,

I thought I would post today to share some words of advice. I relapsed about a week and a half ago after going on hard mode for 30 days. I actually PMOd twice that day, it was a terrible day. Coming out on the other end of it was tough. I go to a Christian councelor who has helped me tremendously. He told me that the next week after a relapse is crucial if you were able to come along as far as I did clean. He said that if I can go the next week without PMO again, then all the progress I have gained will not be lost. So that was my goal, to stand up and fight for myself and my wife. I got through the rest of the week pretty well, I had a couple days where I started going back to where I was when I relapsed a few days before but I was able to get out of it. After day 5 of that relapse, I was feeling something different inside. I felt a strength and a transformation happening inside. I just did want to look at anything our M. I put my addiction on the back burner and now I am finally able to focus on the route of the addiction and address it directly.

I guess what im saying is this. PMO is a symptom of a bigger and deeper problem. For me it was due to the harsh relationship I had with my mom and the legalism in my life. Whenever you fail after a while, don't give In and binge for days, stand up and fight because you're brain eventually starts to understand that you just won't look at that stuff anymore and you start to weaken that stronghold. Use a relapse to your advantage. Fall down seven times, stand up eight!