Another lovely day working with my wife on garden projects and community projects. I used to get so paranoid and jealous of S talking with other men. I had terrible social anxiety and would often say inappropriate things trying to appear normal. Since I have stopped PMO this has changed. I guess we judge others by our own standards and if I am willing to entertain sexual thoughts about others then I should expect my wife to do the same, which is what caused the paranoia and anxiety. Now, because I don't entertain thoughts of sex with others, it is easy to accept that my wife doesn't either. There are no issues when S tells me about a nice person she met in the village or we meet on the street. Its all a bit messed up and I am very grateful she is still with me considering the thought crimes I have committed.