I have read so many times that worrying about things you can't control is a waste of time or not productive but I can't seem to stop thinking about those very things. Thinking about the future or what the girl you like is doing. I guess it's because I have too much free time. This shit always happens for a few days after a relapse. I just lose my sense of self. I give too much shit about what other people are doing with their lives. I'm gonna get my shit together. I'll make a schedule tomorrow. Any tips/suggestions are appreciated.