Worsening sex fetishes

So I’m sure i’m not alone in this to start off. I started watching porn at an early age of 13. It all started with casual pic searches and nudes. I used to just look at the pics of nude models and thats it. then i surfaced on some short clips of nudity and sex later on. nothing serious or sick so far. hold on disgust is bout to be unveiled. I was born in India so watching porn is like the worst thing u could do to feel guilty because u are taught to have so much respect for women from the beginning also one of our gods is a woman. So being naive i just started with pics and gradually came across porn sites. It was due to all my friends at that time watched it too and plus it was so interesting and exciting to watch something like that. so at this point i’m 15 and just watching normal shot porn videos and discovering masturbation. I started masturbating at 15-16 and i did it almost every day. hardly skipped. now i dont know if its relatable but since i started masturbation i just began noticing my hairline act weird. At this point i’m just watching regular porn and masturbating. I was not too serious so i thought i’m just noticing too much. it started to get worse. i can see my hair is getting thin and i can see scalp when its wet which was not the case before. I still didnt research or looked into just thought its natural or that my heads getting bigger. my addiction grew stronger.
At 17 i was watching more intense porn. Gangbangs specially gave me enough satisfaction. Girls getting used by different guys etc etc.... i knew this is fake and just a fantasy still watched it so many times. at 18 i’m pretty sure my hairline got so worse that my friends started telling me i’m losing my hair. Still not taking it seriously i kept on watching porn.
my fantasies got even worse and i liked watching more rough scenes. I liked watching girls getting spit on, slapped and abused. I liked when girls get degraded. I know it were my insecurities and inability to maintain a relation with a girl is the reason i started watching such stuff also my growing fetish. So at 19 i watched even rough stuff. that included girls literally being used a piece of meat.
My whole mentality towards women turned like into this sick psychotic one that every girl i talk to i cant make them like me. my whole vibe died. i was no longer myself. Nobody seemed to show interest in me even tho i’m a decent looking guy. At this point i’m 20 about to turn 21 in two days.
I have decided not to watch porn since long but i just cant stop
my longest nofap streak is 27 days. Rn i’m on my 7th day. I respect women a lot and am genuinely not at all like that in my right sense of mind. even at all times i’ve had sex it never made me hard easily. One really bad fetish that i’m currently on is Blowjobs.
I just find facefucking videos so satisfying. Which is so fucking disgusting just after i fap off i realise what have i done. Iike watching girls puke while blowing and all kind of sick stuff turns me on. I dont know what to do i’m just trying to not look at that i’m firm on my mind.
By no way i’m like that in real life nor have i done something like that to anyone. I respect girls a lot and just want to leave this sick stuff behind. It has grown to a point that i’m seriously looking to use rogaine to get my hair back. But whenevr i start nofap my hair looks so much better the next week i dont fap.
Can anyone relate to my situation? please let me know i have lots of other stuff to discuss.