After a series of very big fights (yes I am partly to blame for them) with my wife who is ending our relationship as she says she no longer loves me, I am left with a dangerous sense of worthlessness. I have been called lots of things by her because of my actions in the past and they are being heaped on top of one another leaving me feeling utterly low and like I mean nothing to her or anyone else. She says I cant do it and that she feels sorry for anyone I might meet in future, that I am a loser and that nobody could want to spend time with me, I know that she is angry but I have always soaking these things up and I struggle to understand my own feelings at times let alone someone elses. How can someone who said they loved me and wanted to help me change so much so fast? My reason for posting is that it is so triggering that I am really struggling today to stay free from PMO. It is a sense of 'no one cares about you', 'you are nothing to them but a loser and a joke anyway', 'make yourself feel better, somehow, anyhow'. But I know that it won't so I am hoping someone can just tell me to be strong and that opinions of others are just that even if you still love that person more deeply than anyone else in the world. When does it get better.