Would you consider this a relapse?

Discussion in 'Rebooting - Porn Addiction Recovery' started by Pathofsuccess_1, Dec 24, 2019.

  1. Pathofsuccess_1

    Pathofsuccess_1 Fapstronaut

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    I was just watching a movie. I saw someone open the door and I saw a pretty woman’s face. I got aroused and I looked for a few more seconds then looked away. She was clothed and I almost started looking at her body but didn’t. I thought of looking again as it turned me on a lot but I didn’t want to go any further realizing what I was doing. I almost full blown relapsed. Did I reset? I fought the urge to fap and I didn’t look back at the tv to get another glimpse of her face or to catch a good glimpse of her body. Not sure if it’s a reset as I felt the dopamine. Let me know what you guys think of it. Merry Christmas! and Thanks.
     
  2. IR254

    IR254 Fapstronaut

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    I think your trying way to hard, bro. It sounds like you believe NoFap is about surpressing all of your sexual energy and sexual desire. That's a terrible misconception in my eyes. NoFap is not about avoiding your sexuality. It's not about avoiding to look at women. It's not even about avoiding fantasizing. It's about cutting out empty pleasure by watching porn and jacking off.

    What you're doing is not recovery in my opinion, but torture. That will probably not work out.
     
  3. avatarivn

    avatarivn Fapstronaut

    I don't think its a relapse but you might want to ask yourself if that woman was nothing but a "sex object" (to relieve yourself) when you were looking for her after the initial glimpse.
     
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  4. Pathofsuccess_1

    Pathofsuccess_1 Fapstronaut

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    I appreciate the help guys. But I unfortunately ended up relapsing. It’s fucked up. But that won’t discourage me from anything. I’m doing it this time. Getting through all temptations. To answer your questions I did feel like it was a relapse because I looked at the woman in a sexually objectifying way and I got a pretty intense rush of dopamine being sensitive in the early stages. Just a month ago I kept getting streaks of 20+ days, but recently this month I’ve been binging more than usual. I’m getting back on this horse, NO questions asked. I’m changing my life for good. I’m done relapsing.
     
  5. Pathofsuccess_1

    Pathofsuccess_1 Fapstronaut

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    Your not wrong bro. This last month has been relapses and binges because of me thinking I messed up because I looked at something a second too long or I rubbed my dick too many times and making myself relapse on purpose to start the streak fresh because of these reasons. I know. Bullshit. However, a lot of the forums have gotten me over this I feel though and I think I should be ok as long as I don’t purposely look at anything for a rush. But I do think what I did was a relapse anyway because when I looked at the woman on the movie I had an intent to get a pleasurable dopamine rush and I kept looking afterward.
     

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