I must admit, I’ve been in a flatline that was utter hell today. I almost gave up, but I kept with it. A few hours ago after forcing myself to start reading I put the books down and put on some music, which is unlike me. As the music played I realised I was present in the moment. I could hear the words like I’ve never heard them before, and then whoosh! A flood of amazing tingles wrapped around my body like a warm hug and embraced me for a short period. I felt elevated, like I was suspended in the air, weightless. I laid there as this process repeated. Even though it got weaker each time I didn’t try and force it, I didn’t chase it I just welcomed it. All the time my inner thoughts were repeating, “I’m here, I’m present”. I not long after that period started to just dance and feel one with the moment. Just me and the world. You’d think I was high, but I’ve been abusing hardcore porn since I was a young boy. I went from feeling like I wasn’t real to that. If you’re struggling, I promise you this journey is bloody worth it! —wow!