Writing (erotica) as creative release during reboot... bad idea?

Here's a question.

Just a little context for people who didn't read my earlier posts, intro etc. I'm massively into online erotic roleplaying and reading erotic/pornographic stories, more so than visual porn. I'm staying 100% off those things as a part of my reboot.

Now, one thing that erotic roleplaying did to me was it made me incapable of producing fiction. The instant gratification, satisfaction of a response, feedback... something that is harder, and less certain when I have to write a whole thing (even just a short story) and put it "out .there". Which is something I used to be very keen on. In my late teens and early twenties, before being swallowed up by the world of online erotic roleplaying I used to write quite a bit. Most of it was fanfiction, and a lot of it was erotica or stuff that would more or less qualify as such.

One of the drives I've been feeling this last week, and in particular yesterday and today was to do creative writing. I know, with near certainty, that what I want to be writing will have erotic charge/aspects, or end up being outright erotica. I'm not sure if this would be a bad thing; it's after all not an external stimulus, it's not erotica/word porn getting into my head, but coming out. I imagine it would feel quite cathartic. However. It would mean actively engaging with fantasies that were mostly subdued since I started the challenge, daydreams and fanciful imaginings that now have less power over me and my life, which feels like a big part of the benefit of doing the challenge/reset. I'm torn. Do I write whatever needs to come out, just keep my hands off my dick and don't read anything of anyone else's, or even my old stuff? Do I write, but focus on fantasy/fanfic/romance steering clear of the potentially toxic intensity of erotica? Am I better off not writing at all, finding a different release for this energy inside me which is starting to feel a little pent up, and like it wants to come out creatively (please, I don't want to be advised to lift...) but then I'm a bit at a loss as to how... I'm already working and studying harder, my room is tidy, shirts are ironed... I need something that isn't a chore at this point.