Yep, I'm New

Well, they say confession is good for the soul, so here goes...
I am a 19 year old guy who has had a struggle with MO since I was 13, and PMO since 17. Its been a struggle, and I wanted to stop, wanted to not do it. I would go for a week then relapse, then binge, then be off for a week or two again. It was a cycle, a viscious draining cycle, especially after the binge. Recently, ive just felt so dead, so annoyed, so lost, like a soul wandering through a vast emptiness with nothing to see, nothing to do, but I stumbled upon this group through youtube. This has excited me, and lit a new fire under me, so that I want a life, I want a drive to do things, to complete my tasks. I believe I have found the end of the old me, and I want to crush, no, destroy that guy. I want a new life where I can relate to people, not objectifying or idolizing them.
Help me destroy this thing called addiction, I want to take back my life!!

 

didn't even realize til now that you responded Dogwood, but thanks for those links!