Okay so Yesterday was tough. I thought I was going to be sick. Sometimes I don't get triggered but when I allow my brain to go lazy, my thoughts drift to how great it feels to have that rush of dopamine release and before I know it, I am at a site or page that triggers me into pmo, I relapse and I fall into a continuous cycle of self-disgust and loathing. That's exactly what tried to happen yesterday. My thoughts were drifting and I was in physical pain trying to resist the urge to give in to my cravings for pmo. It started around noon and all the way through to the evening. It receded when I went off my phone and took a walk with my friend. I prolly should have done that earlier but usually when it happens it's like sth strong is gluing me to the phone and won't let me go unless I do porn. This is hard, but I can't afford to give up. I am not giving up. It's day five and honestly I am scared considering yesterday's near triggers but I believe I would do more than survive today and the days after it. #Grateful for all the help and support#.