Yesterday's Fantasy is triggering me now.

Yesterday's fantasy :
Trigger Warning !!!
Well I am a recovering porn addict.
I sext yesterday night with a stranger . He was a sex addict and told me that he has fucked more than 10 escorts at OYO rooms in [***********]. He sent me some photos of those escorts. They were fucking beautiful.

Out of lust, I ask him how much will be the price of those escorts for one night ? I told him that I also want to do with her.

In real life , I am not so pervert to fuck not even my favourite female friends. I am attracted by women but cant face them.

But while watching porn and sexting , my horniness compels me to behave this way.

Well they guy told me she will cost more than 20K INR.
I told him that I am ready to give that amount.
My bank balance is zero and I am jobless but I told him that I am earning more than 1L INR and I can give 60K for that girl.

The guy on other side of the chat told me that you can get her for 3 days then and told the more you will give , the more she will open for you.

I was getting aroused !
I was feeling tingling sensation in my penis and it was getting hard.

Then he told me to come once to fuck her. You have to use weeds to escalate the pleasure.
He also told me to fuck her first in the bedroom , then in the bathroom and finally in the kitchen. You will found that she is like your favourite Porn Star.

Then I went to chrome to see some of my favourite porn stars topless.

My lust made me change the topic.
I again started to sext with him . I told him nudity should be legalised in our country and public toplessness of women and adult(18+) girls should be allowed at park. Nevertheless the guy didn't like the topic.

Then I visit some porn site and watched some cam girl to fap. I saw porn and topless cam girls till I fap.
After Fapping , everything stopped !
I had no urge to sex with that escort after that.
I then deleted telegram account. And put my phone on charge. Then went to sleep. Didn't repeat talking.

All these incidence is a trigger.

One question ?
1. Am I trying to sex chat because of my porn addiction or horniness ?
2. I am not interested in any prostitute in real life but why am I aroused by talking lies about want to fuck them ?
3. I told some stranger in telegram that I was married and now divorced to watch porn and have sex with anyone I like. In reality I am neither married nor so pervert enough to have sex with anyone. Why am I behaving this way ? Am I crazy ? Is it because of porn addiction

Last word :
I never felt horniness before the habit of masturbation and porn. I was not lustful either. I was only attracted by girls romantically to make friendship with them.