You wanna hear about struggling with triggers...I tattoo lovely people all day.!

I work in an industry where I tattoo various clients from various backgrounds. Right now it's summer and I have a large base. I won't talk in detail of attire or exposed body parts for fear of someone relapsing. When I looked at porn none of this stuff ever fazed me in the least bit. Now work seems to be a big trigger lol. But I gotta pay the bills. A number of my clients are of the feminine persuasion, where we carry on in casual talk and humour. I can't think of how much I've made in tips this week alone...stripper money LOL. I feel this NoFap journey has really enhanced my sociability twofold! Transmutation is a real thing guys. Transmutation has improved my customer relations and bedside manner BIG TIME. But the ugly side is because of my reboot (5 days on for the 2nd time now) I'm seeing the carry over of being repressed from looking at porn for almost 18 years, that I get these 'what if I cheat on my wife' feelings, but what will that solve. My SO and I have numerous talks about my struggles. What will it solve if I fantasize of sneaking a 'side piece'. Fuck all that's what. It's not fair to my wife, our marriage, and above all, myself. I'll be trying to get my dopamine fix in the real world, and that's never worth sacrificing my marriage over, not by a long shot.! (No pun intended). My wife and our sexual relationship has been really doing well since going through this nofap journey over the past year. I'm committed to this 100% now. My heart was palpitating after my last client. I have a business to focus on, clients to charm, weights to lift, mouths to feed, and a family to care for. I can't let anyone down. I'm done running on a treadmill going nowhere in this area of my life.

 

It's even a bigger deal since I'm fulfilling my career dream this fall. I would have never dreamed doing what I'm planning to do but all the cards are right in front of me. 14 years and now it's time. I've been on national tv, magazines, radio, tattooed in another country, but this will be a BIG game changer for me. Nofap is a huge part of my training in self mastery now. Need it more every day.