what are your experience short and long-term effects of experience of a Relapse cycle in your life? After a relapse usually I'm not good for anything I mean I can talk or act like a normal person but I can barely concentrate or be able to express myself in the way I want to... It's like mentally I've muted and numbed myself to the point that it doesn't matter any more where or when I am. It's really interesting that the opposite happens when I'm (actually) having sex with another person (I'm having a hard time remembering when was that... lol ) And when I am out I'll avoid eye contact quite often especially with a female. Ill talk a lot but with no substance.. The usual mistakes I do as far or concerns "social skills"I'll repeat then also. Getting one digit after the other but without ever call or getting a reply since I don't the appropriate reflecting energy... Not even having a strategy or focus to someone specific (which is turn off to anyone anyway). I used to run for 10 miles every day some years ago..I haven't really exercised for a while now... But even so if I try to run after a relapse I feel like I need to take a break. Heavy brain fog as you can see... Depending on how many times I've relapsed, it will take hours to a a couple of days to recover on the 1st level of clarity like the life of an isotope The more I abstain the more focused I get.. Of there are urges but if you avoid them they are just momentarily whereas brain fog it's like a avalanche. Hope about you?