Youtuber Fapped Sex talking with girls and getting emotional attachment.

[ihategirls]

Hi guys, I'm a YouTuber and I make good videos on YouTube. For God's sake, I have so much potential and everything in my life is going well. I earn a good amount too (touchwood). However, I've been struggling with PMO (porn, masturbation, and orgasm) addiction for the last 11 years. I went to college and couldn't leave the habit, even when I went to another college. But I had it under control until 2022, when everything was going smoothly - I was making videos, having fun, and my Instagram was growing. I was getting views, paid brand deals, and more.

But in 2022, I had a heartbreak, and I indulged in this habit more. I used to go on dating apps where my identity wasn't revealed, and girls easily got attracted to me because of my good voice. Once I started chatting with them, I'd end up masturbating, and they'd do the same - we'd engage in sex talk. Later, I realized this wasn't good for my health, so I tried to stop by deleting my accounts everywhere. Meanwhile, I started waking up early and meditating.

But somehow, I fell back into the loop of sex talking with girls. Now, I've messed up my brain and emotional health so much that I don't feel like doing daily tasks or making videos. I'm struggling with life, getting too emotional with girls easily, thinking they could stay with me all the time. But knowing the truth, the girls I meet are only there for fun. Why can't my brain understand this? I feel all the emotions together - heartbreak, loneliness, emotional attachment, depression.

Guys, I'm feeling very bad, not even feeling a minute of joy in my life, despite having everything I dreamed of. But I'm losing everything one by one because of this habit and meeting fake emotional girls who just leave after doing it. I'm unable to move forward. My YouTuber friends, who were below me when I started and was doing well, are now bigger than me, getting invited to brand events and lounges, growing by seeing my videos. Now I'm the one lacking behind.

Please give me the power to get out of this depression. Every day feels like shit to me now. I'm very emotional these days, and small things hurt me a lot. Please help me recover my life as it was earlier. I'm on day 2 and have decided not to indulge in this habit anymore, no matter what. Guys, please help me. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

 

[HenryforwardV2]

Hi guys, I'm a YouTuber and I make good videos on YouTube. For God's sake, I have so much potential and everything in my life is going well. I earn a good amount too (touchwood). However, I've been struggling with PMO (porn, masturbation, and orgasm) addiction for the last 11 years. I went to college and couldn't leave the habit, even when I went to another college. But I had it under control until 2022, when everything was going smoothly - I was making videos, having fun, and my Instagram was growing. I was getting views, paid brand deals, and more.

But in 2022, I had a heartbreak, and I indulged in this habit more. I used to go on dating apps where my identity wasn't revealed, and girls easily got attracted to me because of my good voice. Once I started chatting with them, I'd end up masturbating, and they'd do the same - we'd engage in sex talk. Later, I realized this wasn't good for my health, so I tried to stop by deleting my accounts everywhere. Meanwhile, I started waking up early and meditating.

But somehow, I fell back into the loop of sex talking with girls. Now, I've messed up my brain and emotional health so much that I don't feel like doing daily tasks or making videos. I'm struggling with life, getting too emotional with girls easily, thinking they could stay with me all the time. But knowing the truth, the girls I meet are only there for fun. Why can't my brain understand this? I feel all the emotions together - heartbreak, loneliness, emotional attachment, depression.

Guys, I'm feeling very bad, not even feeling a minute of joy in my life, despite having everything I dreamed of. But I'm losing everything one by one because of this habit and meeting fake emotional girls who just leave after doing it. I'm unable to move forward. My YouTuber friends, who were below me when I started and was doing well, are now bigger than me, getting invited to brand events and lounges, growing by seeing my videos. Now I'm the one lacking behind.

Please give me the power to get out of this depression. Every day feels like shit to me now. I'm very emotional these days, and small things hurt me a lot. Please help me recover my life as it was earlier. I'm on day 2 and have decided not to indulge in this habit anymore, no matter what. Guys, please help me. Thanks for taking the time to read this.

You can do it friend.
Hope is a great thing. Do not lose sight of it.
You may fail, but you keep getting up until you triumph.
All the best.

 

[ihategirls]

You can do it friend.
Hope is a great thing. Do not lose sight of it.
You may fail, but you keep getting up until you triumph.
All the best.

Thank you for the support, my brother. I deleted the chat I had with a girl because I was feeling very depressed and my mind wasn't ready to move on from her. However, I know I need to make tough decisions to engage with real girls and real-life matters instead of short-term pleasures and distractions. I'm going to establish a new routine now, and I believe that after 3-4 days of good sleep, healthy eating, and exercise, I will regain my energy. This will also help me move on from the temporary feelings of love I had for that stranger girl.