Fun fact: Brunei DPMM has played in 3 different leagues: Brunei Premier League, Malaysian Super League and Singapore Premier League. Woah!
Day 12 without MO and the reward . . . sex! Isn't that the goal? Already I feel urge to MO, but hoping to channel it into more love making.
The increased urge to O was a factor, but I think accountability helps even more. Several people have been supporting me in my goal to not MO and to have more sex (more than once a month) - I think that helped me to make the effort to initiate and my partner was very happy to oblige. :)
Keep your spirits up!!! There's hope in the long run. If u can make it up to 90 days. If u relapse make sure it's not too heavy on u.
Yesterday I felt emotional loneliness and emptiness, there was a reason I think, came up from my work. This morning I had a wet dream proceeded with a lot of urges, I edged to fantasies, then to internet couple of times, each for couple of minutes then a quit.
Currently I am fine, I stopped all the edging factors, and recommitted. I passed the 80 days. Hopefully I can stick to this and avoid any future edging to stay clean as I am planning to have my marriage soon In Sha Allah
