I'm an idiot. I was on Day 50 no PMO, and I was feeling like a million bucks. I'm on a business trip and alone in my hotel. I decided to watch porn without masturbation out of boredom. After 15 minutes, I ejaculated without touching myself. The next day I felt like absolute garbage. I had brain fog and felt very lethargic. It's impossible to quit just O but not P. It has to be no PMO all together. I'm on Day 1 and will quit PMO all together.
They are unfortunately linked in our damaged minds. That's the sad truth about the addiction we suffer. I'm married and because of that, I don't abstain from O, only P and M. But any time my wife and I are intimate, I have to be on extra guard the following days, because my fractured, broken mind doesn't know the difference between healthy and unhealthy sexual activity. Listen, the P is the problem here. It causes everything else to be thrown out of whack. Stay away from it like it's poison. In a lot of ways, it is. Keep the P out, and the rest will follow. Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and get back up here on the frontlines with the rest of us brother.
Thanks for the warning. I also have failed my streak many a times out telling myself a few minutes of porn wont do much harm. I ended up fapping everytime!
I completely understand. I've done the same thing. Almost like a challenge to see how far I can go without fapping. Not very far, let me tell you. Still, if you just learn to live without it, you'll be better off in ways you don't even realize yet. We're all here for you bro. Feel free to message me if you need a pep talk. I'm always checking my notifications.
When you reset your counter, I suggest you set back your criteria to no PMO. It is the most effective and safest approach.
When i have to stay in a hotel alone i know its a slippery place. So i call the hotel ahead of time and tell them to block the pay channels on the tv. They make millions each year of lonly travelers.. they have the ability to block them for parental controls. If they cant or wont ive placed a towel over the tv and dont even turn it on.. its just too much a tempation. And travel and work stress always lower my defenses.. if you are bored you can hang in the lounge or lobby around other people to not be alone and read a book or magazine or work out in the gym all hotels have.