We all have a choice. Every single day when we wake up we have a choice. We have a choice on who we want to be. The more I tell myself this the more power I feel like I have. I can choose not do do something I don't want to do. I have more power over myself and my temptations. I can choose to not give in. I am. I will. I want to LIVE. Feel ALIVE. With a PMO addiction I feel like I am the walking dead. Going through the motions for reasons I don't know. A pathetic existence at best. I am DONE. I want to LIVE. -PoorRichard
Haven't been here in a while. It's been a weekly thing for me. Have to change my counter. Usually twice a week at most, but doesn't matter. Always feel like crap afterwards, could be another chaser coming up or 3, 4 days or more of staying off but I realize that my whole world revolves around sexualizing everything, it's not reality at all. When I'm busy with something else I don't think about it, when I'm back in "the Loop" the cravings are insane.
I go the opposite route. I don't have a choice. I don't have a choice to use porn. It's simply NOT an option anymore.
It gets to that point doesn’t it? I’m with you and I’m almost 4 months clean and I still want to use most days. Even though I know it is wrong for me and just wrong in general. It’s staggering how addictive it is.
Yes! We take this 1 day at a time. Every day we chose to watch, or not to watch. That is all we can do.