I relapsed twice, I had a two day streak and lost it. I just started this, I feel pretty lost and discouraged. I don’t want to stop trying. I just hope I can make it at least 5 days, then go further after that. I hate this so damn much. I know I don’t need it and I don’t want it but I keep going back to it.
It's going to be rough in the beginning. Your addict is trying to rationalize with you on why this habit is still ok to do. Over time you will see changes and benefits and possibly will be tricked into thinking that you're "healed." You aren't though. It's all trickery. It will take your person 5-6 months to feel normal again. This should be your motivation.
Don't give up on it. It will take time, and patience, but you can do it! I am beginning Day 16, of a 40-day challenge. The goal is No P/M... I've been feeling tension for a few days, but I am pressing thru. I come to this site, and update my status, whenever I feel that temptation. Maybe you can do something similar. Hang in there; you can do this!
This is key. Try to improve your approach to the problem with good habits, etc that are mentioned in this forum. But it's important to never stop trying. Many times we forgot that this is a marathon, and not a 100 metres race.