... but now every woman, that I find interesting, scares me. My whole self esteem is gone and I just want to leave the place. After the break up I got so many self issues and feel like I am not good enough for any woman. I just can not talk to woman, I have social anxiety now. How to cope with that. This month I only had three relapses with porn, four relapses with mastrubation. I have my best month this year. But now I am total in anxiety when I meet a woman, that I find cute, or would like to have.