My First Thread Ever!!

OK here goes. Hey everyone my name is I'm Committed, I am a 20 year old male virgin. I joined many months ago and have finally worked up the courage to post. Since I joined I have had many relapses and have actually done so today, so I thought because of that I should go ahead and tell you how I feel after the fact. Please bar with me as this is my first post and I am really stepping out of my comfort zone.

Let me just say I honestly felt nothing, you see I have MO so many times now that I literally felt no climax, even after a 16 day streak. I relapsed because I got so focused on my fetish/fantasy that I was really horny all day and it was building up. It seems to be after 16 days I start to try to justify why I PM and I look up forums and such to help me cope with it, but it only makes the erg stronger and stronger until I break. But you see I know this and I tried not to do so but to no avail.

If your wondering about my fetish/fantasy is. I actually have two really big ones. The first one is dominance and submission, for some reason the thought of being dominated by a woman is a huge turn on for me. That probably has to do with the fact that I have very low self esteem, have only had one serious relationship (if you would call it that, I mean it wasn't much of anything at all), and the fact that I am very shy around girls and don't have a lot of experience talking with them. I hope to get a little bit more into my relationship in another post but I'll just leave it at that right now.

The second one I'm honestly still not comfortable posting about since it's very personal to me. I do want to make a thread about it at some point, but if I try to post it here I would be here all night, it has that much of a hold on me. The only thing I can say about it is it seems to be one of the more common fetishes on this site.

After I did the deed, I made a video for myself telling how I felt at that exact moment for future reference and I hope to use that to kind of show my face and how I look and feel after the fact. Anyway guys and gals I thank you for reading and if you have any thought or relate to this in anyway please leave a post I would love to hear it. Thanks for reading this far as I was really stepping out of my comfort zone for this post. Anyway I hope to see you on future posts and forums, lets beat this thing together!

Thanks,
I'm Committed

 

Thanks bro it really means a lot.

 

You got it bro, keep up that streak I got a long way to get there.

 

Hey Serpent just wanted to say if you come back to peak at this thread, I hope your doing all right and wish you nothing but the best.

 

Thanks @mondhamray I appreciate it.

 

Yeah I'm in a bit of a rut right now, doing school and work at the same time and spending a lot of time at home is enough to really make urges and relapse more frequent.

 

Yeah your not wrong, I just wish I was motivated to do so. I think a lot about things I can do to get out of the house, mabye meet new people but at the end of the day it just never happens. I feel helpless all the time. But your right I have no excuse not too.

 

Thanks @Mowgli 32, I will look at it when I get a chance.

 

You to brother.