Just curious - I am trying to stop at the moment. My "current in the progress wakeup call" is: a roleplaying site (F-list.net) that allows for demented and crazy fun where its no limits barred....I used to get alot of hits in the past...but now sadly all I am doing is wasting my nights away looking for that "one good high/hit" Plus my kinks have gotten very weird and disgusting to the point where I can't even look myself in the mirror. Sadly my abstinence never lasts more than a month. I think I am doing good, then I live in nostalgia and I know that its remembering the good....but forgetting the negative past, but that damn feeling just grabs ahold of me.
I dont think that I had that aha moment. I think like you, I've been noticing hours and hours going by with me wasting time on porn. That, along with some realizations about my life going by passively led me to believe that I need to analyze how I deal with emotions, which, in turn led me to thinking that I use porn to escape.