Guys i know this is going to sound crazy... I'm scared that I am becoming more devious. I had been on about day 30 of no porn yesterday I edged and I MOd to Psubs on IG then this morning same thing I found a pic that was uncensored on IG of 2 women nothing too graphic but now I am worried that I am into that Is that the case? Am I getting more deviant? I dont want to post any triggers if you have any advice please message me....
You're not crazy. This kind of thing can happen after a period of abstinence. Your brain has healed somewhat, but this means it is more sensitive. This can lead to having less "control" if you do give in and start looking at stuff. It's the same if someone quits another type of drug and then relapses - they'll be more sensitive to it and things tend to get messier than if they were doing the drug all the time. So basically we have to quit and quit for good.