Today, in a few hours, will mark 4 weeks of zero PMO. This is a first for me. I feel fantastic. I'm a completely different person. Every change has been for the better. While the struggle to abstain remains, it gets easier every day.
Better than the alternative! Done so much reading and youtubing on the subject, I think I know what to expect...LOL!
Actually flatline can be dangerous. Less energy, more sleepiness equals more time on phone and little less motivation to do stuff.
The short version is, once I discovered how porn caused me 40 years of PIED, masked as "performance anxiety", as well as having contributed to a number of terrible, but important life decisions (who to marry; who to leave my wife for; who to marry round II; what wife II did for work, and so many more), I decided that it was enough. The commitment I have made towards a PMO-free life is probably the biggest, strongest commitment I've ever made. PMO-freedom has given me a glance at what my life could have been. I'm fortunate that I'm young enough (56!) to look forward to a brand new me, without ED meds, without PIED. When I think of the number of times I found myself with opportunities for unreal naked fun (way more than just sex with wife or GF), and, to not participate due to PIED, I really wish I could go back in time. In fact, if I had the opportunity to go back in time and change ONE thing about myself, it'd definitely be to not get hooked on PMO. I'd take that option a hundred times over buying tons of stock of Apple, Microsoft or Amazon on their IPO day.
bro you are fucking awesome! You are beating this thing and serving as a Light bearer! You fucking kidding me? At 56 you might have seen more P than any of us, its so much more difficult for you to do what you do! I can so relate to how you reflect on your past! PMO has destroyed more lives than we can imagine. Its keeping us from doing our best! Its more dangerous than any disease! Its killing us slowly! If you have time, I would like for you to be my mentor...exchange messages regularly! I hope you can make time, man! Please let me know. I would really appreciate it! I want to get rid of this PMO addiction once and for all and be my best self. The world needs for us to get rid of this PMO and be our strong selves.
Glad to read about your progress, but you should listen to Bragi. Flatlines are real and vicious (flatline's a bitch). That's why you shouldn't rely on motivation alone, and practice on self discipline, so that when a strong urge will come you'll kick it in the ass. Not that I'm one to talk, I'm still struggling with it up to this day... Knowing what I just said is one thing and applying it for yourself is another thing... Good fortune, anyway.
I'm taking this one day at a time. Sometimes, It's one minute at a time. My commitment, however, is unwavering. I'm not "trying" a reboot. I'm not "seeing how this goes". This is my one streak. I'm killing the fucking demon.