Well done man. You are totally correct about being able to bear it. I tell myself that if I can take it, I can make it!
Such an amazing story, this motivated me a lot. Thank you. But one thing I found out that weed is really dangerous for my recovering process. The relaxation it brings makes things less important so I don't really care much about nofap and just want to watch some porn and wank. I hoped that weed would be the cure for the lack of dopamine while I was abstaining from PMO but I was wrong. After several relapses while high ( I must admit that the feeling is unbelievable and addictive), I decided to quit it. Maybe it just didn't work well for me.
I can understand that completely. For whatever reason weed seems to effect me differently than most people. I totally get how the "it doesn't matter" effect could be a major problem. I'm glad my post was helpful for you. Keep going! I'm happy you are doing it!