Your story is exactly to similar to mine, I can relate your situation with mine, that I have dealt in the past for 3 years but brother, One good news I have for you. There is always light at the end of the tunnel and that can only be done with started that you 1st stop watching porn. The main culprit here is porn through which you have fallen into PMO thing. You are not mental, you are not an addict, it's just that time is testing your will power. Once you pass this phase of life you will not imagine that life is so really beautiful. After reading your condition, I feel like killing all porn industries with AK47 for ruining people's life by throwing them like worthless. I raise my hand to help you in this time. I will guide you to come out of this. Take one day at a time. You will start seeing improvements. Do message me personally, if I can do anything for you.
Are you asking about my mental health now? I don't feel depressed, though I would say every 3 days or so I get into a sad mood, but only for a few hours. These "sad moods" may also be a function of me listening to sad music so I'm not sure. But yeah I don't feel depressed everyday and I feel somewhat less numb towards activities in daily life. I do still have OCD however, which causes me to have intrusive thoughts. Last winter these used to be HOCD thoughts, but now it's less sexual/porn-related and less frequent in volume (more related to work and other things).