Hi, I have been stuck in a destructive loop since I was 20! It was always on and off and some sessions were worse than others. The guilt built up each time and depression soon set in. I was underproductive because of it and feel like it has hindered my development immensely. It has been a few weeks since I last relapsed. The urges have started once more so I feel I need to surround myself with positivity. I am going to close this laptop now and turn off the lights. Nice to meet you all.
Welcome brother. You are amongst friends and we are in this journey together. Suggest for the time being limit the computer to work and this site. You can do this.