After being 2 and half month free of PMO I'm stuck again and back to my old self. lately I had alot of stressfull and emotional momments and I went to numb the pain with porn I binged very very bad 3 days straigt that my head hurts and I'm stuck I don't seem to get out of it and I'm very sad and feel at the lowest in my life. I don't know if i should continue with this shitty life since I was a kid Never had any fun only trauma's and shitty momments I'm not weak but its just very sad i'm writing this and crying from the inside.
Sorry to hear that. It's difficult, but be strong, man! In the end, everyone has their problems. Try to cheer up and try again
Indeed, I have to kick back up again with pmo it gets 100 times bad and i feel even more worse after a relapse. It seems like I lost all my motivation to continue with this journey and life in general I'm just laying in bed and wondering what I should do with my own life
What u went through is very common. If u could reach a point where u can relapse without feeling guilty, you are halfway there. Your brain has always handled anxiety with pm. To change that it will take a bit of time, effort and hell lot of patience. My advice to you is to "know thyself". Know yourself and you will win every battle. It is never about quiting , it is a matter of building a new you.
That is true every time I had a very bad and stressful day I would go to PMO i still have to work on that part instead i have to go outside home take a walk or go to the gym that's the only way to improve my streak as @StarRider also said.
I'm 7 days in now I feel better but not the best i still get alot of P*** flashbacks but I will keep fighting
Thats the worst thing you can do. This way you make yourself more addicted. You are overloading your newly sensitive brain. You will most likely start over from a disadvantage.
I know it's easier said than done, but part of the problem is guilt. If you can learn to be kinder to yourself, and in turn remove guilt from the equation, I think this will really help you in your long-term recovery. Keep on going dude, most of us have been in your exact situation when it comes to feeling stressed and depressed, and then using porn to get the short-term feel good effects. My advice will be to find new outlets which make you feel good, and to resort to these whenever you feel stressed.
Thanks now when I feel bad or stressed i just go out and go fishing or I go and do some calisthenics I started to get spiritual again and asked god for help and guidance and I feel much better
The human mind is a very strong tool and can adjust to anything. sometimes we limit our self and don't push our self to the maximum potential. Specially when watching porn and masturbating your self confidence drops and so your motivation to workout and to study gets impacted within. practicing NoFap will not let you run 10km in one day, as i stated before NoFap will give you the motivation and courage to workout so you can build your stamina. you can't sit on the couch and expect to achieve everything in life because you are now practicing nofap, wake up from your wonderland!.