Hello guys, some fucked up shit happend to me 1-2 days ago. I was on my new streak and all of a sudden I started having gay thoughts, something like blowjob, lol. I mean I have never done anything with guys, I am interested in girls, but now I am just sitting in my chair realizing that these kind of thoughts don't even disgust me anymore, I enjoy it. What type of shit is that? I don't want to become a gay wtf Did you have something like that?
Yes I understand. It has happened to ke as well. About 6 months ago I started watching trans porn and found myself wanting a real experience. It's one more extension of the dopamine need being provided. I even got a Grindr profile and exchanged cock pics. I know I'm not gay but the thought of sex was exciting. As of today I'm back on day 1. No pron today no M. I'm going 30 days but 2 day at a time. No cheating, no Images, dirty chats. Theres only one way to break the habit and that's to cut it out entirely.
An aspect of porn addiction is that your brain will seek out more unusual, exotic, and fringe stuff (depending on how much exposure you've had so far). Like @BigBob73 said, "It's one more extension of the dopamine need being provided." I would say that you have to acknowledge that this is part of the journey. It may be surprising, but if you can learn to accept it, it will have less power over you. Stay strong, L.L.91
Don't freak out. It happened to me early into reboots quite often. Ignore this, do not "feed" this and it will pass.