Going through alot of shit lately. Too much to handle. The only thing thats stopping me is my 4 day streak.
Get out of the house if you need to, until this urge passes and keep your days building. You can do this.
In that case you can read here to keep as focussed as you can or talk with people in threads until you get sleepy and over the drunkenness.
Alcohol is a depressant, so that isn't a good option. If you masturbate with/without porn that will make you even more depressed. You need to rid yourself of these vices for better wellbeing.